pain – John Onyx

Fear of Light

I’m trying so hard to forgive myself, for all the things that were never my fault.

I asked your heart to hold still so I could paint you in my dreams; knowing all along, that I love the way watercolor runs in the rain.

Please… Let me torture myself a little longer, so that I don’t forget what it feels like to fall in love.

Maybe someday, I might show up, in your sweetest dreams…

The madness, might grip my soul, and crumble me like the ten-page love letter I never sent to my high school sweet heart.

So I’ll be honest

Silence gives me too much time to myself…

So there’s this girl…