Last night
I had a dream
And in that dream
I sat the head of a long wooden table
in the grandest room I’d ever dreamed
And all around me
were strangers
faces distorted
shifting
their size and shapes
fluctuating wildly
like a thousand old TVs
they searched franticly
for the perfect station
that perhaps one day
they might
relax
each face revealed itself to me
the truth
they were
memories cast as actors
and actors cast as memories
each of them uniquely a piece
of my fractured soul…
In my dreams
they costumed
as every person I’ve ever met
speaking and dancing
to beautifully written scripts
crafted by my own subconscious
but among them
a dark stranger loomed
his aura
inexplicably dark
his presence
corrosive to the very matter
of the room
his stench
poisoned the stagnant air
around him
he did not speak
but instead stared
anxiously
his dark mumblings
from frozen lips
filled my mind
as he tried to advance me
beyond the dream
of this honest hall
where he might not be so exposed
as he revealed himself to me
in this moment
the others fidgeted
fearfully
submissive to his gaze
But I knew better…
I knew his deepest fear
that the gaze he could not stand
was my own
Dark Stranger…
Beautiful Stranger…
I forgive you
for it was not your fault
to have become so tainted
It was not your fault
to have been born of the tears
hidden behind lying eyes
It was not your fault
to have been created only
to carry my sins
my fears
my shattered dreams
and crushed innocence
I cannot be upset with you
for hiding in my chest
I cannot be upset with you
for spilling shadows upon my heart
and painting demons with my dreams
you tried
so hard
but you were never meant
to carry it all
alone
everything you’ve ever done
has been to hold me
between the stairs
of heaven and hell
And you have done phenomenal…
But it’s time to let go
dear friend
It’s time to release your pain
and let the symphony of “I”
embrace you
It’s time to carry these memories
no longer as shadows
to be ignored and hidden
but as the cement
that holds
this beautifully crafted
stone fortress of sanity
together
show the world
how beautiful
you have become
you’ve been fighting for so long
Please…
please….
please…..
rest…
you are safe now…
I love you
and I’ll never
ever
let you go